I’m 31. The guy I was with told me he was 42. I ended finding out he was 55. He had 3 children with 3 different women. Drowning in child support. Could barely take me on dates. I told him i was taking a break from birth control, he said he would use the pull out method. He didn’t. I was sick 2 weeks later and pregnant. He abused me, he lied to me
And I still held to hope. I have one child. A teenager I raised as a single parent. He told me to get an abortion. Saying our relationship was toxic. I told him no. I was going to keep it. I was up for a promotion. Sick at work and tired. I got the abortion. He came with me. He wouldn’t even sit next to me, checked out women in the waiting room. And a week later was on a dating site lying about his age to hook younger women like a predator. His first child’s mother was 27. He was 55. I was disgusted.
WE ARE FERTILE. YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE. HAVE A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP. HAVE A BABY WITH SOMEONE WHO WANTS YOU AND THAT CHILD. NOT A LIFE SENTENCE WITH A NEGATIVE NARCISSIST. MIGHT HURT LIKE HELL NOW, and it did hurt. I cried. I wondered what if. I even was jealous of younger children or pregnant women when I went out.
But I’m engaged now, I got my promotion. Moved into my new apartment. And I remember the dates, the experience. But I would’ve been a single parent. 4th baby’s mother. And probably wouldn’t be able to keep my job.
I wrote on here. Cause these stories helped me before. And after my abortion. You got this. It’s not the end of the world.
