You have so much life to live after this.

If I could get through this then so can you. I’ve dealt with panic attacks for years and didn’t think this was something I could survive but I came out the other side a stronger and more empathetic human. Here is my story:

I remember thinking this can’t be happening, this can’t be happening to me. But it was. I was looking at 5 different positive pregnancy tests, even though I had a copper IUD for two years already. It felt like some sick joke. I knew that I didn’t want to continue the pregnancy. And that was the only reason I needed to validate my choice to have an abortion.

Honestly the scariest part was the week wait until the day of my procedure. I’m very thankful to have had my sister in my corner and supporting me and my choices. Also daily 10 minute breathing meditations helped a lot!

The day of the procedure I felt anxious and nervous, sort of the same feeling like going to the dentist or before taking off in an airplane. The doctor and nurses were SO nice. I couldn’t stop thanking them for being there to provide the services they provide. Seriously they are actual guardian angels.

Anyways I chose the surgical abortion and the actual procedure went by so fast. Only about 6 minutes and it was done. Trust me when I say I’m one of the most anxious people ever and I was able to get through this and feel ok. I got lots of hugs every time I asked for one and felt like the most badass human on the planet walking out of that clinic afterwards. Not to mention how relieved I felt that I wasn’t pregnant anymore!

And now, 6 months later, I still feel like a badass. I took a stand for myself and my future and chose to put me first. And it has been an empowering experience. Yes there was fear and uncertainty and yes I still have weird/mixed emotions come up sometimes but I honor them all and trust that I did what was best for me. And that feels amazing.

If I can get through this then so can you. You are not alone, you are brave, and you have so much life to live after this.

We are part of this together.

Sending you so so much love.