I always thought that I would never want to get an abortion. It is my dream to have kids with my current partner and I always imagined I would be happy if I became pregnant, even if it was unplanned. When I did get pregnant unplanned, I hesitated for weeks if I wanted to keep this baby or not. I loved the idea of having a baby, but at the same time I was not ready to let go of my life as I knew it and the plans I had that would not fit in a life with a child.
After having the abortion, I felt relieved that I had made a decision and could move on with my life, but at the same time I was sad to never see what could have been if I had kept the child. It felt like a loss, but I did not regret my choice. I don’t believe there was a right or wrong choice for me. Both lives could have been great, but it feels right that I made this choice myself. I am grateful for the fact that I live in a place with safe abortion access.
