I am 22 years old trying to finish college, I wasn’t even late from my period when I realized I had been breaking out more than usual. Something told me to take a pregnancy test so I did, It came out positive I kept it to myself for a day before sharing with my sister and later telling my boyfriend. I was in disbelief, I didn’t know how to feel or how to take it. My boyfriend was very supportive, there for me through everything so I am very grateful for that.
The whole process happened fast, I went to planned parenthood to confirm that I was pregnant and they confirmed I was 5weeks and 5days. The week after was the appointment for the abortion. I just couldn’t believe I was really going through it. The second pill was the worse, i felt so much pain till this day I can’t explain everything I felt but i hope I’m able to one day.
It’s been three months now, and I’ve felt so much. Mostly anger, grief and a lot of “what if’s.” I felt like I didn’t deserve to ever have kids and that I deserved all the pain I was dealing with. I don’t think that now, now I understand it was okay that I wasn’t ready. I know I will be a great mother one day. I’m also learning that through this experience my body has been changing constantly, even if it doesn’t feel like my actual body now it eventually will. It’s still my body, mine to live with for the rest of my life. I just have to learn to be patient and understanding towards it. It was put through a lot.
