The choice is mine

by Shasta

February 26, 2021

I’m 23 and already feel like a mother- I’m a teacher. I know I would make an amazing mom. I chose to terminate because I didn’t want my child to grow up without a father. I also knew I wouldn’t have the finances to really give my child a good life. But I wanted to be a mom so bad.

It was my choice. Unfortunately, I had to wait til 7 weeks for the procedure. I was miserable during that time. During the procedure, I was so stressed I got physically ill.

Now, two weeks later, I do not regret my decision. I know I will never be the same version of myself as I was before this. Life is about growing and learning. I learned a valuable lesson- I am not ready to be pregnant or be a mother. That does not mean I will not be a mother ever. I will be a mother when I am ready. This hiccup does not define who I am.

If you need support, please TELL TRUSTWORTHY PEOPLE. I finally told a distanced friend and she had an abortion too! You feel so alone when you’re in this position and hearing my friend say “I had that surgery too” was so healing to hear. Her abortion was two years ago and she understood my pain, but I also saw firsthand that she emotionally healed (and flourished) two years later.

I am so proud of all of us women!! How crazy is it that we are faced with such excruciating choices throughout our lives but we are able to continue our lives with grace and fire.


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