i still cry about that, I feel guilty that I wasnt ready.

I had my abortion a year ago. My ex boyfriend and I had a lot of infidelity issues, I knew that if I had the baby, I will ruin his and my life

I still wonder how he will look like or how my life would have changed, maybe i needed a motive to keep going and he will be my excuse to be better but that is not fair for any one of us

maybe one day i will accept the fact that i did the right thing and that there was a reason why I chose to do so . maybe I will be a good mom when it comes the time with a better man.