So much harder than I thought

I have always been vocally people-choice and pro-bodily autonomy for every person, and when I became pregnant at the age of 31 I was faced with personally exercising this. Instead of confident I was truly terrified. Although my significant other supported my choice I felt completely alone and still do to this day. It’s been a little over a month since my surgical abortion and although I don’t regret it one bit, I struggle with feelings of shame and guilt each day that I don’t know how to process yet. And I feel bad about those feelings guilt and shame, a cycle that is performed each day in my brain.