My abortion was both straightforward and complicated. I have a lot of feelings about it still, such as grief over the motherhood I could have had, and also relief that I’m not facing a situation in which I have to care for someone without any resources to do so. A lot of my grief and upset came after multiple attempts to stop me from getting the care I needed.
Ultimately, I’m grateful for the providers that helped me and the friends and family who supported me. I’m grateful that I have control over my body and my future. I’m grateful to be free. I cannot wait to have a family in a couple years, when I have the resources and support for that tiny person. I definitely think of it as an act of love, and I have nothing but warmth and some apologies for that little person-to-be. I hope to see them some other time, some other place. It just couldn’t be here. It couldn’t be now.
