It has been almost 4 months since I had my abortion. No one knows but the father. But we no longer speak, so it is a weight that I am carrying alone.
I do not regret my decision. While I still wish it was not one I had to make, I know I made the right choice for myself.
The procedure was a little painful. I remember them pushing my stomach to remove everything. It was similar to the pushing they do to help you deliver a baby by c-section. Other than that, there was no pain and I was fortunate enough to find a clinic with kind and compassionate nurses and staff.
I, like so many other women, have to hide this part of my life. It is one of those things that some people judge because they simply do not understand. Yet I truly believe if some of those same people were in our shoes, they would find themselves making the same decision we did.
While this is a weight I carry alone, I hope that one day I will feel the freedom I need to share my story with the people I love.
I hope that one day, I am able to be that safe,non-judgmental shoulder to lean on for another woman who finds herself having to make this decision.
