Pros and Cons

by Amber

November 21, 2022

I got pregnant for the first time at 37 and made a pros and cons list. There were a few things under pros but the cons list was just about infinite. It went all the way down and around the paper. I added to it for days.

I ordered abortion pills and felt some guilt once the cramps started. I felt like I was interfering with nature. My body had been hard at work, I’d felt its preparation, and now I was ruining its party. But the ambiguous feelings left me with the pregnancy.

Now, a couple of months later, I remember being pregnant like it was an illness I’ve recovered from. Things are good.

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