Pregnant with a narcissist

26 .. I’m 26 and already had two boys. One at 15 the other at 19.. I always wanted a girl but didn’t want to start all over again. .. but I fell in love with someone who was a narcissist… over the year he beat me, burned my car, lied cheated… I had my last straw on January 1st when he chased me 90 miles per hour on a street running thru 3 cities until I flipped. Totaled my truck I had just got after he burned mine..I can’t live this life no more even tho we haven’t had no contact. My two kids and I aren’t safe and I love my babygirl so much. It’s something I have to do.