My two abortions.

by Emma

May 11, 2020

Content Warning: abuse

I got pregnant the first time when I was 17. I found out at 8 weeks and knew I didn’t want to become a mother in my circumstance. My boyfriend was into drugs, and his response when I told him was, “shall I push you down the stairs?”… he was nasty and I didn’t want to bring a baby into the world with him as its father. I booked in and had my abortion within a week. It was painful, it was scary, but I knew it was the right decision. I told my mum at the last minute and my family were all supportive and helped me through the pain.

A month after turning 21, I found out I was pregnant again. This time was a bit different. The guy I was with came from a loving, supportive family like myself, and I was close to finishing my degree. 21 wasn’t young like 17 was, should I keep it? Something within me said NO, you can’t, your life dream is to travel and see the world. Besides, I had only been seeing this guy for a few months. So, at 6 weeks pregnant, I had my second abortion. I found out the guy I was with had been cheating on me whilst I was pregnant a few weeks later.

I will forever be grateful that I was able to access free, safe abortions in my hometown with no judgment from anyone along the way. I am 21 now, and preparing to travel for the foreseeable future. I hope one day to be happy about a pregnancy, but for now, I am happy being childless, thanks to abortion.

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