My Truth

I had an abortion 6 months ago at the age of 20 and it was a difficult decision for me. It is something I never thought I would experience and for a long time I was mad at myself. I lost my best friend a year ago and my boyfriend of many years broke up with me 4 months after. I was in a bad headspace and I found myself pregnant by someone I barely knew. He was already a father with issues of his own and neither of us were ready. I quickly realized I needed to change my life, but a baby was not the change I needed. I always wanted to be a mother just not like this and not at this time. I hope one day I will get the chance to be a mother again so I can be the best mother ever. No one in my family knows about the abortion. I only told 4 close friends and it’s hard because they try to understand me, but they don’t really know how to. This journey has been difficult for me considering I feel so alone at times. Even though I believe I made the best decision for myself and my child some days are harder than others. I got a tattoo in remembrance of my first child. Even though my baby is gone he/she is changing me for the better and I am forever grateful.