My Surgical Abortion Story

by Bonnie

March 13, 2019

I just had a surgical abortion two days ago. I found out I was pregnant after two weeks of constant nausea and vomiting. I thought I had the flu until my boyfriend urged me to take a test.  I was horrified. I scheduled my appointment, which was 3 weeks away. I had my mind set on taking the pill, but when I arrived and had my ultrasound done I found out I was 10 weeks and 3 days. 3 days late of being able to use the pill method where I live. I was absolutely horrified when they told me they’d have to do surgical.  The nurse was very kind to me and allowed me to keep the ultrasound pictures (it’s easier for me to grieve with closure than if I were to never ask to see it). I luckily was at a clinic that offers twilight sedation. I was put under with an IV of two different drugs. I highly suggest opting for it, I was still awake but completely relaxed. Almost out of body. It helped me so much with my anxiety. The procedure was only about 2 to 3 minutes, and the pain was a bit tough for me at times but nothing horrible. I assume because of how far along I was equates to the pain level I was feeling. They walked me to an area and sat me down in a recliner for about five minutes and let me go when I was able to walk on my own again. The first day I did bleed in gushes but not a profound amount. I haven’t had any pain at all, just a strange feeling that my baby isn’t in there anymore. I know I made the right decision for me and my baby, but I still feel the pain of grief weighing over me on and off. I’m told it will get better when my hormones return to normal. Some clinics will offer amazing counseling services if you need and a free follow up visit. I promise that if you know this is the right decision you should absolutely do it. Never let anyone shame, guilt, or talk you into what you should or shouldn’t do. I’m hoping my story may help someone out there. If you’re reading this, you’re a strong woman and I’m sending you all of my love. You can do this.

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