I had a dream that felt like a memory. Everything felt so real. I saw a 2 year old girl with solar system leggings and a black t shirt with Saturn on it, walk in to the house, she was my baby. She had her father’s eyes, which I always loved staring into. Then as I held her, her father walked in, and I knew we had to leave because we were going on a trip.

I felt so secure, so sure, for the first time ever in my life.

Then I woke up.

After that “dream” I found out I was pregnant.

But your father was terrified, he grew distant and suggested the abortion, and to make him happy I did it. He told me we would have kids later when we were more stable…

3 weeks later, he dumped me. He left me all alone, and I can’t bring you here with me.