This will be my fourth abortion. From the same man I have been dating for 4 years. I’m not ready, and this has shown me I do not want any ties with this man. As I know now our relationship is toxic and he has told me many times I would be a horrible mother and he can’t stand the sight of seeing me pregnant. Why would I want to keep this baby? And deal with him? No thanks. I am leaving him and I am starting over. Dear god grant me the strength and do not render me weak for this is a very tough decision.