I had recently relapsed for the last time and I told my boyfriend I was ready to stay clean. So I, once again, got a full month clean and realized that I missed my period. I took a test and yup, it was positive. I was so angry but I knew I was in no position to keep it. I went and got an abortion and honestly, I never used again.
Taking back control of my life was so freeing. I realized I could do whatever I wanted. I took that time and really got my life in a great place. Fast forward six years, I got married, I bought a home, I had six years of sobriety and I just started my own business.
That test turned positive again. I was careful but I still do not want kids. Knowing how I feel towards kids, I know that I needed to get another abortion. I’m not a bad person for getting a second one, especially given that I don’t want children. What would make me a bad person is having a child and hating them.
