The door opened, I looked inside,
Then slowly stepped in, into the cold and white
It wasn’t even painful for me
And for the courage of being finally free
I was also filled with pride
For that I got away from the demon inside
This is a poem I wrote while still being filled with emotions right after my abortion.
It metaphorically portraits my feelings of the “thing” growing inside of me, as I never had the feeling of it belonging or having any worth for me.
It sounds hard and emotionless, but it’s nothing but the truth. I felt horrible for feeling that way after I became pregnant and tried to love the embryo in my womb as much as I could but failed. I failed loving it because I knew I didn’t want it to be there.
I don’t feel sorry anymore. And I feel so comforted by all the people supporting abortion rights and people having abortions. A huge thank you to all of these people. They’re the best. They’re the community I want to belong to. Their support is endless.
Thank you.
