My Abortion in my head

by nicole

November 21, 2022

I am young and I know having a baby was not for me at the time. I found out I was pregnant and I was in shock so at first I cried haha…but I was happy because I think this is a miracle like everyone says “bringing light to the world.” It honestly felt like a treasure box full of gold being opened lol. I knew I was preggers and started getting all the symptoms : fatigue, nausea, cravings (IN JUST TWO MONTHS !!!!). The worst part was the mood swings and one day I felt happy but super tired but the next I would be crying and feeling super suicidal and I broke down all the time.

I felt like my partner was not fully invested because I already told him I was not planning to have it so that made it worse. I finally went to the clinic for my abortion and same day I found out I was 2 months. I knew I was longer then a month because my stomach was super huge (“but it’s only two months???” yes lol it was huge.) I felt ready. the guilt I felt after was horrible. It is now November 2022 and I had my abortion in August 2022 and I still feel guilty and hurt. And if anyone is experiencing this as well I hope you heal mama !

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