My abortion cost me my job, but I wouldn’t change a thing

I was in a mentally abusive relationship. The test came back positive. I didn’t know what to do, but I knew I couldn’t have a child with this person, nor did I want a child. They never gave me time to think about my options. My abortion was their forceful choice…but it saved me from so much more. It ended up being the best decision ever. I took the pills by myself in my bedroom. No one was around for the aftermath of what I would wake up to. I threw up too quickly. It didn’t fully work. I didn’t know this until the following weeks. I was getting unbearable pains causing me to miss work at my new job multiple times and ended up having to go to the ER. I couldn’t tell my job what happened. They fired me. It was my first job in my chosen field and I lost it. I couldn’t tell anyone at the time. Not friends, not family, and absolutely not my work. I was ashamed of what I had done because of the stigma. The person I was in a relationship with refused to talk about it. They wanted to act like it never happened. They refused to help me with my emotions. This only made me cling to them even more because they still were the only person who at least knew what I had done. I felt guilt and shame for a very long time. Then I started to heal. I found resources for other people like me who have had abortions. I realized that I still made the right decision. I could’ve walked out of that clinic, but I stayed, and I’m so glad I did. I was 21 and no where near ready for the responsibility of a child. Although my decision was filled with negativity from all aspects, looking back, it was still the best thing I have ever done. I wouldn’t change that for the world.