I was 25 and he was married to someone else. We ended up together anyways and now have a planned child. I always wonder what if … I don’t think that I regret it, but I do think about it from time to time. Sometimes we make the best decisions we can at the time. I spent a lot of time researching what a five week old embryo looked like which helped me to feel better about my decision. I think for many women there are lasting feelings that come with abortion that we don’t talk about. I felt relieved after my abortion but also had bouts of “What have I done?” It’s been almost five years and I’m still healing and rationalizing what that moment meant in my life.