I was 21 and in a rocky relationship with my boyfriend, neither of us were ready for a child, despite having talked about being parents one day.
For 4 weeks, from finding out I was pregnant until about 2 weeks following the abortion I felt like a zombie. I feel like a whole month of my life has been blocked out from my mind. I felt everything and nothing at the same time – sadness, guilt, relief, regret, an overwhelming sense of numbness. I’ll always regret giving up that opportunity to become a mother, but I’ll always know I made the right choice.
That baby was thought about, loved and wanted more than anything, but the timing was just wrong for us. But I’ll always wonder what could have been.
