Me

I’m sharing my story because I don’t see many like mine, and I’ve spent countless hours searching for abortion stories that resonate. I’m a stay at home mom in her late 30’s, and my two children are my whole life. I just couldn’t be more devoted to them.  You might be surprised (or not?) if you knew me – I’m a Room Parent, PTA parent, etc. I’m all-in on the parenting front. I’ve based my whole life around them. But when my husband and I discovered we were unexpectedly pregnant, right away I thought – I can’t do this. I felt I had reached my personal capacity for what I had to give. Also, I had postpartum OCD after one child, and depression after the other. So, we decided to terminate the pregnancy at 5 weeks. It was very sad, and I’m still sad. But I think this decision was right in the sense that it allows me to be the kind of mother I want to be to the children I have. I think it’s okay to say, I just wasn’t ready. I’m just not strong enough. I don’t want to do this now, to my body or my mind. It’s okay. I struggle some days, but truly I believe – It’s okay. And maybe I’ll have more kids someday…who knows? That’s okay, too.