by Anonymous

April 24, 2020

Hi I just wanted to write my experience on this website because it helped me get through my abortion. okay so here I go:

I was 17 now I’m 18 anyways I was on the pill but I missed and I got pregnant. I was scared as hell and my boyfriend which I’m still with wanted to keep it but I knew we couldn’t raise a kid yet and he grew up without a dad so I felt so bad making the decision to get an abortion. He didn’t force me to keep it but he wasn’t really able to be emotionally there for me so I only really had the support of my friends since I knew my parents would’ve kicked me out of the house if I was pregnant. Anyways I went to planned parenthood and I planned on doing the abortion pill but then I got the bad news that I couldn’t take it cause in the ultrasound I was too far along to do that. I had to do the in clinic abortion which I was deadly afraid of, but it was my only option.

Next they did some tests like poke my finger and ask simple stuff, so the next week I went for the real deal, my friend drove me and I went in alone there was only one protester too which I was glad but just wanna remind the girl who is reading this F*** those protesters it your body no one else’s and you’ll never see them ever again so do what I did ignore them they aren’t stopping you, just annoying you.

Anyways after entering the clinic the ladies in the front desks welcome me they gave me a packet to see the details of the procedure then they called me in and I talked with one of the nurses. She was super nice and asked simple questions and didn’t judge me at all she then told me that I should do the procedure with sleeping medicine because if I did it with ibuprofen it really wouldn’t help me with the pain. I was scared that the sleeping medicine would mess me up. Next the female doctor  gave me ibuprofen and an antibiotic and two lollipops she was so nice with me and gentle and calming which was great because she put a needle in my arm so when I started the procedure so they could put the sleeping medicine in.

So next they put me in a waiting room with of 5 other girls of all ages and races btw anyways I was so scared but in the waiting room I calmed down a bit more since they put on guardians of the galaxy for us to watch I was like omg really this is a little funny but really relaxing. Finally I was called in for the real thing. A nurse took me in and told me she would be helping during the procedure. She told me to undress and put a pad in my underwear so when I was done she could help me get dressed then another nurse came in and hooked me up to the heart rate machine which is not at all painful. Then then she started put in the sleeping medicine in me meanwhile the actual doctor came in and she introduced herself, very nice woman.

Then the nurse who  put in the sleeping medicine said that the medicine wouldn’t take long to kick in which was correct because I felt dizzy immediately after, but then I felt a little sleepy and super light then the doctor started. I felt an uncomfortable pressure in my vagina like if someone was leaning on it to be honest then then it felt like heavy cramp. I did start to cry and kept saying sorry but the nurses were like “no it’s okay sweetie you’re doing great, almost done.” One of the nurses held my hand the whole time and I just lay there looking up which really helps btw. And they stopped – the sound of the vacuum machine stopped and it wasn’t not really loud either btw I was like “are we done?” It had only been like 3 or 4 minutes. The doctor was like “ yup all done you did great sweetheart.”

I was surprised I thought it would take longer and I would have been screaming in pain but no I just cry – or not really, more teared up without the sobbing. On a scale rate the pain is a 6/10. Next one of the nurses helped me up and put on my clothes and walked me to the recovery room where they sat me in a comfy big recliner and then then asked how much I was bleeding. I bled just a little, like less then me on a light period day I sat back down and in like 15 minutes the loopiness of the medicine was gone.

My best friend came a picked me up and we went to subway because I was really hungry. I was able to walk fine. My lower back was a little sore, my vagina a little too, but not like when I get my period. Next I ate and came home took a quick shower and rested. The next day I went to work like nothing there.

I hope this helps you remember it’s your body queen I feel stress free now and hope the best for you, you are stronger than you believe and I promise you it’s wayyyyyyyyyyy more scary in your head doing the procedure and it’s safe and less painful then the pill and almost no blood really seen with the procedure . Stay strong if I can do it you can too girl I wish you the best.

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