I had an abortion a little over a week ago. I am 29 and happily married with 2 kids. When I found out I was pregnant, I cried tears of sorrow. I love my family and would like to add to it eventually, but not now. The guilt was intense initially. I made a list of reasons I couldn’t be pregnant right now. I’m a Covid 19 first responder. I do contract work so no guaranteed employment. Both my and my husband’s jobs are very uncertain. The health risks due to the pandemic. The fact that no job would let me continue to work. Etc etc. Tormented myself with this list for days. And then I realized that aside from all of that, I simply did not want to be pregnant or have another baby right now and that is ok. You don’t need to convince yourself or anyone else about a decision you know is what you want. There were lots of tears and lots of sadness about it, but I knew what I wanted to do. The procedure itself was very quick and the staff were so pleasant to me. My experience was very positive and my husband was supportive the entire time. I have no regrets.
It’s ok to simply not want a baby.
