It was almost like the universe was telling me I was going to be okay.

I just completed my medication abortion at home. And while it was an emotional roller coaster, I do not regret it.

I remember seeing the first line on the pregnancy test show up screaming I was pregnant. I chose not to believe it for a while. Maybe it was a false positive, even though it is super rare. I spent the whole day angry and frustrated at myself thinking how could this happen to me. How could I let this happen to me?

I scheduled an appointment at Planned Parenthood that night. It was also storming really bad. I take note to this for later in the story.

As the days went by, I couldn’t help but remember every five minutes that something was inside of me. Something was living and growing inside of me that I made. I knew deep down I was making the right decision, for my future self and my future children. I couldn’t help but want to take care of what was inside of me. I didn’t want to lift heavy things or hunch over a little too far, even though it didn’t matter.

The day leading up to my appointment, I started to get really scared. I didn’t know how this was going to go down. Will it even work? Will I regret my decision? Am I going to feel shameful for the rest of my life?

The day came and I woke up to it pouring and thunder storming. I was soaked going into my appointment. But everyone was so nice and made me feel so comfortable. I walked out of my appointment to sunshine and warmth. It was almost like the universe was telling me I was going to be okay.

I went home with my medication and my boyfriend was with me. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be. It did really just feel like a horrible period. I felt immediate relief once I realized it was all okay.

I do not regret my decision. I am glad I have the choice to make this decision. While I might think about what could’ve been sometimes, I sit happy knowing it is what was best for me and what was inside of me.