Hey to anyone who is reading. I had an abortion back in October 2018. Apart from a friend of mine who was also going through the same procedure with his girlfriend, I haven’t told anyone about it. I’m from a religious background and culture, automatically I knew I’d be judged. As a matter of fact abortion is even illegal in my country, but fortunately for me I was able to have a safe procedure done in another country where I attended school.
I guess I’m writing this because I want to be heard, I don’t wanna keep this to myself anymore. Honestly I do not think about the abortion, neither do I regret per se, but know that the current topic of today’s world is centered around abortion I’m currently reminded of it. Everyday as I log on to facebook I read the views of my peers “baby killer” “murderer” “abortion is a sin” and then I begin to fight within myself and ask am I really a murderer? A sense of guilt comes over me along with the recollection of the abortion.
My procedure was not painful, but mentally the ordeal was. I had no support, and barely no one to talk to. The guy who got me pregnant did not talk to me or attend the ultrasound or procedure. I missed many days of classes and my grades suffered because of it. I had to paint a smile through the constant nausea and fatigue while hanging out with friends or family so that they expected nothing. It honestly was a trying time for me.
