We stopped using protection and I was using natural cycles. I dreamt that I was pregnant and took a test the next day. I was excited but then 24 hours later, I plummeted into an unbearable depression and excruciating anxiety. I couldn’t eat or sleep and was questioning how I would move forward. I couldn’t get help and didn’t know where to turn or what was happening.
When I began to plan how I would end my life, I knew I needed to end the pregnancy and be more prepared next time, with access to the right help. It was the most awful thing that has ever happened to me, I can’t imagine how much worse it would have been if I couldn’t access safe abortion.
