I think I’ve made the right decision.

I’m 23 years old, not financial stable for myself. I’m still asking my parent to provide me supports. (It’s normal in my country that parents do support their children until they are financially stable.) Since I’m an Asian, there are a lot about sins and karmas. I was afraid to do what I did at first when I found out that i was pregnant (4days ago) but I had an abortion today and thankfully there are the support and choices here in Thailand for me to choose how I wanted my life to be. I feel like I’m so brave to do what I did. It’s not an easy decision to make but once I have to go through this, I know myself that I am much more stronger than I thought I was.

I do feel sad, I cried a lot but I think I’ve made the right decision to get an abortion. I think if I was going to have a baby I want to be the mom who could able to provide everything that my kid wants. I want to be more ready to support them with everything he/she asks for. Since when I was younger, my family wasn’t this rich. I was a kid in school who feel left out because I can’t have what other kids have. So I don’t want my kids to feel the way that i felt when i was younger.

So far, I think this also teach me a lot on how to be a good mother.. I would never do what my parents taught me (the very conservative Asian parents) I know if I had a kid in the future I’d be open minded to her/him and willing to support that with no judgements.

Idk I was just to shout out to everyone who is struggling on life, I know it’s a hard decision but you are strong! You’ll be alright. It’s not easy for a girl or women to decide on this but you know you have to believe in yourself.