I started 2020 wanting a baby and ended it with an abortion

by Mary

January 19, 2021

I am married and in August, 2019, my husband and I decided we wanted to have a baby. We thought we would wait until spring, 2020 to start trying so we could get some things in order. We were excited and told our family. Then 2020, and everything that came with it, happened. At first we thought it would be fine and we would go along as planned, but we all know nothing this year has gone as planned. We decided it was for the best to wait, which was heartbreaking. And then it got better. I am lucky enough to work from home which gave me a chance to get to know myself better than I ever had. I didn’t realize how much I was compromising who I really was and I took this year to get to know me. My husband and I decided we want to move to a beach town and change our lives up in a way that would allow us to explore and have some excitement. Then I got pregnant.

I knew immediately I no longer wanted a baby.

The second I saw it was positive I started thinking of how to get out of the situation. I’m so lucky to have a husband who was on board with whatever I wanted to do. He was amazing and I never felt pressured to go through with it. So we went to Planned Parenthood, who were AMAZING, I took the pills. I bled on and off for a month, but I didn’t experience much pain or discomfort. I never regretted it.

I don’t know if I will ever want a baby, but I know that I absolutely don’t right now. And now I get to look forward to our new lives in a new town.

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