It’s been five months since I had my abortion.

I still don’t know what I feel at this moment.  I’ve been waiting on the day I feel comfortable coming here to pour my heart out and now I realized I don’t think I need to anymore. I still feel confident in my decision, even when I thought I wouldn’t. I thought my abortion would break me, but I am still standing.  I still think about what could have been but I refuse to let “what ifs” get to my head. Some days it is difficult to sit in that emotional space of accepting my decision compared to others.  But I know I needed to.

I would have been due September 1st, 2022. I will take myself out to ice cream on that day.