I had an abortion today. And I do not regret having an abortion.

I just had an abortion. Literally. A couple hours ago. I read tons of stories on here before having one. Thought about it a ton. Went back and forth a ton. I have to write this before I have the chance to second guess myself. I do not regret having an abortion. I will say that again, to convince myself that is okay, I do not regret having an abortion. There is so much stigma around it. So much judgement. That I begin to judge myself. But I do not regret having an abortion. The doctor asked if I wanted to play calming music. The nurse held my hand. I do not regret having an abortion. They made me feel safe. They made me feel heard. As my legs shook from anxiety, my eyes clenched tight, my hands clenching my shirt, the doctor told me to go back into my own body. To breathe. I did the same thing I did when I went into labor because yes, I am a mom already. I breathed through the cramping (which wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be). And I do not regret having an abortion. It felt like the most normal experience. Because it is. I have given birth and I have had an abortion. I had an abortion to save my family. The only way I could protect what would have been my second child, was to give them to the angels. If there is anybody reading this who needs to hear this from somebody else, I do not regret having an abortion.