I graduated college the day before

I had just graduated college the day before when my ex and I learned I was pregnant, he was always insistent on abortion & I didn’t want kids at that moment or with him, we hadn’t been together for a month. I decided on the at home option, he was an EMT so it was only fitting he was there with me. It was the most physical pain I’ve ever been in and after the fact, the experience emotionally took more of a toll on me than I expected. I don’t regret it. I wish the person I shared the abortion with was better about everything in the end. My ex decided to write a contract stating we couldn’t contact each other via my mom once he paid his half (he had offered to do so 5 months prior, bought a dog instead) and I haven’t spoken or seen him since. That was in 2017.