Today has been a very emotional day to say the least.
I finally took a pregnancy test (before work, bad idea.) I’ve been late for about 10 days. the first test was from the dollar store so I figured it might be off. I cried instantly after I read the results Positive. I have always had a strange fear of pregnancy. The second test I took a friend brought to me at work. Instant clear blue lines. I am pregnant. I’m almost positive it’s my ex’s who’ve I’ve been intimate with who is facing jail time for bruising my ribs etc. in July. That’s another complicated story in which I won’t get into. I scheduled an abortion for next Friday. I felt instantly calm once I booked it. I feel unsure of my choice at the same time, like what if it’s meant to be? I don’t want to spent my life regretting the choice to have a child with someone so unstable and who couldn’t take care of his last son and baby ma who also have an order of protection against him. I’m 80% sure I’m going to go through with it. I agree with the other women who have had the courage to share their stories. This is a very isolating strange feeling .
