I had an abortion a year ago today. I feel mostly guilty about how I don’t feel guilty. My family and friends told me how I would regret my choice. I don’t regret it at all. I am young, too young for a child. Now at 20 years old I can’t imagine my life with a baby. I still can barely take care of myself. I live in an apartment and my main source of food is ramen and soup, there is no way I could take care of another human being.
None of my close family/friends understood what I was going through at the time. I was depressed and bipolar, I knew that it would come down to the choice of the baby or me. The father was not prepared to take care of it or willing. He wanted different things than I did and we were in no place to make those decisions. We were being careful in making sure this didn’t happen but I guess it’s not 100% effective. We were young, we were not ready. I don’t regret my decision. It was my life or its. My instability at that time was life-threatening. It was best for me. I recently had a glimpse into my future if I had kept it. It was grim. I saw a 50 year old woman with no job, unsuccessful, and abandoned. I am content with the choice I made. I hope others will see why it was best for me.
