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Children are our futures, but they can only be our futures if they are given what they need and what they deserve. 

by Anonymous

June 29, 2018

I found out I was pregnant just before Christmas in 2017 and I was absolutely devastated. I still have no words to describe the terrible onslaught of emotions and pain that racked through me. I wanted to harm myself and I was willing to kill myself just to stop being pregnant. This sounds awful, but I wished for a miscarriage, so that I wouldn’t have to go through the process of having an abortion. The worst part was that I was one of the very unlucky few who got pregnant with my IUS Mirena Coil. Experts whom I speak to within the sexual health field, as I am a student nurse, boast that the Mirena Coil is the best form of contraception. “Almost as good as sterilisation! It has a 99.8% efficacy rate!” they say proudly. But when they say it, all I can think is of how it failed me, and how when I got it inserted that the nurse said, “Oh, you won’t have to worry about pregnancy! The chances are extremely rare!”

But it happened to me. And my partner and I tried so hard. We took all of the right steps, but it still happened to me.

 

I would like to make one thing clear, and that is that I don’t regret my choice and I will never regret it. I just wish that I never had to make that choice in the first place. The only person who got me through it all was my partner, who supported me every step of the way. He was even allowed to be in the operating theatre with me when I had the abortion.

 

Given my line of work, I work day in and day out with children and young adults who have been discarded and chucked out not only by society, but also by their families. And that, in my opinion, is one of the worst crimes that society has to offer. Children are our futures, but they can only be our futures if they are given what they need and what they deserve.

And I wouldn’t have been able to give a child what it needed or what it deserved, which was my time, my compassion, my energy, and my ability to give them a stable and healthy life. I know that some of you pro-lifers will be reading this and think that I am a disgusting person, but think away, because I am my own person. And you have no right to judge me, my decisions, and least of all my life.

It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make, but if I hadn’t been given an opportunity to make that decision in the first place, then I don’t think that I would be living right now.

And that’s the honest, damned truth.

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