I’ve had four abortions.
The first was in 2015 with my boyfriend at the time. I was 20 and nowhere near ready and neither was he. The second was three years after that. The third and fourth was with my husband. One happened because the person I was with did not listen to me when I said not to finish inside, and the others were sheer luck (or unluck) and Plan B not working.
The last one was just two months ago. I found out today that I am once again pregnant. I broke down.
I never imagined myself going through an abortion, much less five. I don’t regret any of my previous ones but this one has hit me hard. I feel angry, embarrassed, sad and a little guilty. I wish this situation had never happened.
I know I’m still not ready (financially and mentally) to be a mother and neither is my husband.
I’m grateful to have the choice. I just wish I didn’t have to take it.
I know I wont regret it; its just a tough situation regardless.
