First Time

by Andrea Casas-Beaux

April 17, 2023

I got an abortion. I got an abortion after an unexpected pregnancy. An unexpected pregnancy that I ended up hoping for a future with. After experiencing intimate partner violence, I felt it was best to eliminate the chance of a tumultuous future for any potential child.

The procedure was truly one of the most horrifying and painful experiences I have ever had.

I almost left several times but I stayed in that room because I felt that I made a commitment to do what was best for me. I felt like I was betraying my intuition but I also didn’t want to be tied to an unpredictable man for the rest of my life. I am saddened by the outcome and I do truly miss what was taken from me.

I know that not any one experience is similar but I hope this story helps even one person feel not so alone. I do not view this experience in a negative light. 

I am eternally grateful to my close friends. I couldn’t do this without you.

Planned parenthood is an essential part of our healthcare system and we must continue to work towards accessible care for all.

Remember that our stories are ours to tell. We’d love to hear your story too!