I had my second abortion yesterday. I had my first abortion 8 months ago. I did not ever dream of being in this predicament, let alone twice within a year, but I’m thankful to live in a state where I’m not villainized for my choice and access is easy.

I am a mother of three and my husband and I have a happy, loving marriage. Both of us have full-time careers and paid childcare is provided by my retired mother. We own a beautiful home and have a wonderful life.

Both times I knew I was pregnant pretty instantly (having 5 prior pregnancies, 3 children & 2 miscarriages). Both times my husband and I wavered the decision… but at almost 40, I felt done having children. Our youngest is only 15 months and a complete JOY—while a playmate for her would be nice, while we could easily afford another child… I just didn’t want to. We didn’t want to.

So I had a medical abortion, again, before I hit 5 weeks pregnant. While I am grieving… I am also so relieved and ready to get back to my life. Thank you for allowing me to share my story.