Didn’t know

by Anonymous

June 3, 2019

Content Warning: rape

Let me preface this by saying I knew from a young age that I didn’t want children, and I never had them.

I had my first intercourse at 18. I had the guy wear a condom.Then I chickened out at the last minute. He didn’t even break the hymen. Three weeks later I realized I must be pregnant. The doctor said sperm can pass the barrier even if the hymen wasn’t broken.

I knew my only options were to bring the baby to term and give it up for adoption, or have an abortion. My family had always been liberal, and I was about to go off to college, so abortion was the choice I made after some long talks and a lot of soul searching.

I’ve never regretted it. I’ve been sorry that it happened, but it was the right choice. Others need to have this choice to make. After this experience, I found a doctor who would tie my tubes at 21 years of age. Never regretted that either, especially as I was raped the next year.

I’m 61 now, have lived a good life, am satisfied with my decisions.

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