I always admired those who told me their abortion story. I looked up to their strength and confidence to share with me such a personal experience and thought that if I ever was in that situation where I needed to make a choice; I wouldn’t feel anything but proud of making a thoughtful life choice. Now that I had my first abortion last week, I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone…I thankfully have a supportive partner but I don’t know how to express my experience and emotions to even the closet people in my life and wonder if I need to. I thought I always would to help the negative stigma that comes with that word- Abortion. I thought of telling people I had a miscarriage but haven’t because it’s my choice to share or not. I hope to be a mom someday but it’s not today.

I’ve cried everyday. I hope that the sting of loneliness and unwarranted guilt will numb overtime. I’m so grateful for this platform and hope that others who have had an abortion can know they aren’t alone (even during Covid-19). It’s okay to not be ready for motherhood.