42nd Birthday

by Anonymous

April 13, 2023

I got pregnant the day before my 42nd birthday, a working mother with a still-nursing 1 1/2 year old and a 9 year old I was fully homeschooling in the midst of a global pandemic. I was on progestin-only birth control which I took like clockwork.

I love my daughters to the moon and back. My family is complete. Adding to it was beyond my capabilities in that moment, at least for how I wanted to provide for them. I quietly did a medication abortion at 6 weeks. It was like having my period condensed into an afternoon, then it was over.

I fretted and fretted during the couple of weeks between my pregnancy test and my abortion. I read so many stories on here! Now it’s two years later, and I’m just finally getting to writing my own because life has just carried on as before, exactly how I wanted it to, busy as a working mom. I am thankful I live in a liberal state and had the means to carry out my business legally, privately, and safely. I wish everyone was so fortunate. My grandfather’s sister died of a botched back-alley abortion in the late 1930s. It gives me chills to consider our different outcomes. We can’t go back.

Remember that our stories are ours to tell. We’d love to hear your story too!