I’m 18 and just had a surgical abortion at 20 weeks.
There were many circumstances why I had to wait to get an abortion this late but I knew there was no way I could keep or carry on with the pregnancy- financially or emotionally.
I only told my boyfriend and my friend, and I honestly felt so alone. Although they tried to offer whatever support they had- they didn’t understand what I was going through. The pain, the emotions or the fear. I felt completely by myself through the whole 4/5 months of this pregnancy and through the termination.
I also had to attend the clinic physically alone due to the pandemic, this was another daunting thing that kept me up at night with fear. I just want to say to anyone who may read this and feels the same as how I felt, you are not alone. Once arriving at the clinic I saw all sorts of people from all sorts of races and ages waiting in the same position I was. At that moment in time I realised this isn’t something I should fear or be ashamed of.
I was also in the fortunate position that the staff at the clinic I attended were so kind and caring. They held my hand and supported me through the hardest two days of my life.
After my whole experience and feeling like I could never physically do it, I am so proud of myself for having the strength to do this alone. I am so proud of anyone who goes through an abortion at any point in the pregnancy and if you are reading this feeling shamed, alone, I am here for you and you can do it. No matter how hard you think it is- you can get through it and you will.
I will never forget these two days of my life but I will never regret my decision either.
