The hardest part

I never ever thought I’d have an abortion. I’d support anyone’s right to have an abortion. But the topic was in debate form for me. I never thought I’d have one if I accidentally got pregnant. But then I did. I had so much alcohol the first month I was unknowingly pregnant. It was a devastating decision. But it was the right one for me and the fetus. It’s been a little over 2 weeks since my abortion. I look around and sometimes feel like I’m missing something. Like I’m still supposed to be pregnant but I’m not. But that wasn’t and won’t be the hardest part of this experience. The hardest part was that my abortion needed the approval of a panel of doctors and a social worker. Even though they were at least care professionals, I was extremely distraught about not having control over my body. It was traumatizing. I never wish that on anyone.