My body, my voice, my pussy, my choice. I chanted this to myself on repeat from the time I discovered I was pregnant to the time I got to my appointment. I was raised in a very religious family. Sex before marriage was severely looked down on. Being the liberal atheist I am, I lived by my own rules. The topic of abortion had come up numerous times in conversations I had had with friends. My response was always the same: I don’t want kids but I’d be the type to regret the decision and be upset for the rest of my life if I had an abortion. Funny enough, days before I found out I was pregnant I was having that very conversation with a friend…little did I know I was already pregnant. The morning I took the test and confirmed my worst suspicion I immediately called my boyfriend to let him know, hung up and called the clinic. In my mind there were no two ways about it. When put in the situation I knew this is what I wanted and no one was convincing me otherwise. The days leading up to the appointment were hard. I refused to use the “p”, “f” or “b” words. I couldn’t watch shows that talked about pregnancy I couldn’t even talk to or about my sister who was pregnant.
The day finally came and I had the procedure. The people there were soooooo FANTASTIC. I was so nervous going in that they would try to talk to me about other options or try to convince me otherwise but this was the opposite. They were all insanely supportive through the whole process. It really made a stressful day feel easier.
I look back on the decision and I know it was the right one. Although I was 25 and in a steady solid relationship I did not/do not want children. Bringing an unwanted child into the world is not fair to any party involved. Some days I feel guilty… but more than anything I feel bad that I don’t feel that bad. Society always taught me that abortion was wrong but I have come to realize that mentality is so wrong. Everyone has the right to make their own decisions. It is not wrong. It is a woman’s CHOICE!!! I want to shout my story from the rooftops so other women who may be scared know IT’S OK! Do whats right for you!!
