A True Abortion Story

by Love

May 21, 2021

Hello everyone, let me start off by saying I’m a very honest person & I hope anyone who reads this does not judge me, but instead appreciates my truth & that it may help, heal & bring warmth to anyone who has been through this & may one day go through this process. Also this read may be slightly graphic pertaining to the abortion.

The Beginning

At the time I was 27 years old when i met a guy who I instantly connected with. We were intimate the first time we hung out & did not use protection. We only had this encounter once and let me just tell you, ladies it really does only take one time. So continuing on me & the guy kept in contact everyday from our first time. We both lived in two different states at a very far distance. After about four weeks of us being intimate I started to notice my body doing things it had NEVER done before. I was constantly nauseous & almost everything bothered my sense of smell. Pregnancy never crossed my mind until the 7th week & I decided to take a test, sure enough I was pregnant.

My Decision To Have an Abortion

The night I found out I was pregnant I immediately knew I could not keep this child. I made this decision quick because mentally, emotionally & financially I wasn’t in the best position to bring a child into the world that didn’t ask to be here in the first place. I felt I would fail my child & due to the fact that his/her father lived so far away & we weren’t even in a committed relationship, I didn’t want to set myself up to possibly have to do it on my own. I scheduled to have an abortion 3 hours later I took the pregnancy test & my first appointment would be the very next day for a consultation with Planned Parenthood. I went to Planned Parenthood & they confirmed I was pregnant. They told me I was 9 weeks along & scheduled me for a medical abortion for the following week on a Tuesday.

The Actual Abortion Process 

That next Tuesday, while in the clinic I took the first dose of medicine. That one you have to take in front of the doctor & it’s to actually stop the pregnancy from continuing to grow. I took that, it did not make me feel pain but I do remember feeling slight cramps only on the right side of my uterus as if someone was pinching me there. The next day I was to take the 4 pills that you put between your cheeks & gums to let them dissolve. I was prescribed two doses of that because I was told I was 9 weeks. That medication made my mouth very sore & made me vomit both times I had to take it. (Side note: I vomited once the medication had fully dissolved, which takes about 30 minutes).

The first two hours I didn’t feel anything but slight cramping & no bleeding at all. At the third hour I experienced terrible cramping which only got worse! I did take the pain medicine recommended before the process, but CHILDDD it did not help at all! I felt every single pain!  I felt like I was no longer in my body & I absolutely wasn’t in control of my body anymore. I could not walk, it hurt to sit, it hurt to lie down, the heating pad did not help! I took more pain medicine & that didn’t help either! One thing I found very interesting was the fact that I didn’t bleed as much as I thought I would, so maybe that was the cause for the extra intense pain! The pain on a scale from 1 to 10 was a 40! I’m not saying this to scare anyone just being honest. It felt as if someone was tattooing my uterus, and the pain did not pass quick! I went through that pain for about four hours. I thank God my mother stayed on the phone with me the entire time. After four hours I was on the toilet when I felt  my body take over & started to push for itself! I felt a gush of warm fluid come out of me followed by 3 gushes of tissues. I didn’t look. Almost 15 seconds after that came out I immediately felt relief & knew everything had passed through. I stayed on the toilet & that’s when I began to really bleed. I was so tired afterwards. I’ve never felt pain like that before. I had cramping still afterwards but no where near the pain of before!

Final Remarks

For anyone planning on having an abortion, I just want you to know, it’s ok! This is your life your body & you ultimately have to make the best decision for yourself. My heart goes out to anyone having to go through this process alone! From sitting in the clinic alone to being at home alone like I was. I hope an abortion does not hinder you but instead helps you become a better woman for yourself like it did for me. This abortion taught me just how strong I actually am & how much I do want to give all my love & attention to child & to raise that child in a better environment. It taught how much I want & needed to change my life for  the better so when that day does come again I would be able to give my baby everything she/he needs as well as myself. Take care ladies. I hope this helped someone. Wishing you all the very best in life.

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